I've been debating back and forth on whether to reveal what we have been up to recently. Especially since this has been a difficult week. I am beginning to come to the conclusion that I should come forward. Because if I am moody and rude people will wonder.
See we had 1 frozen embryo left. We decided to go for it because we both want more children and I put this imaginary cut off point down - no kids after 45 which I still somewhat feel is valid. So we did the prep work for a frozen embryo transfer, which in hind sight not sure if I should have waited or not but that's another story. When they took her out of storage - she thawed well, REALLY well, and grew one cell, she had a rating of +4 which is EXCELLENT!! So we were excited - because embryo's don't always do well in freezing but if they thaw well that is good. We did the 2 week plus wait since we were traveling for the holidays and waited till we got back. I took the pregnancy test which is part of the protocol - it's a blood test. And sadly - we were not successful. This has been difficult for both of us. And as our life goes Dave left on a trip a day later. So here I am with a beautiful wonderful child who I adore and am still sad because it is beginning to look like she is our only. But at the same time and I feel really blessed to have her since it took over 10 years to be successful for just her, this is a strange place to be in.
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